Saturday, February 2
Feeling blucky about stuff
I'm feeling discouraged about our house/real estate project. It is stalled out because the first contractor I met with completely blew me off after I let him walk through my whole house. He never followed up at all -- sent no estimate like he promised. I realize this is minor, and maybe I don't want anyone irresponsible working in my house. And I actually received a useful book of names/reviews of all the top-ranked service people in our county - general contractors, roofers, plumbers, etc. Nice, right? Just showed up in the mailbox, out of the blue. Pretty good timing. So I'm going to call one or two of them on Monday and re-start. But Urgh. I just feel like all the things we need to do won't get done. And I heard today that some friends of ours also want to move, and they have their "punch-list" of projects, and now I'm fearing that THEY will DO all of their stuff, and we won't, and come spring, they'll have a nice fixed-up house to sell, similar to ours and in a similar neighborhood, and either we won't, or we might but theirs will be nicer and therefore will prevent ours from selling. It's unfounded fears, I know, but that's where my mind is at the moment. (My mind also goes back and forth from "we have all we need," and "what would we even DO with a bigger/newer house?" and "I won't even feel confident/smart enough to live in a nicer house" to Want Want Want Want Want, so there's that.) One thing I have decided is that the extra income I get that is not my salary (I have a couple of sources, like my cantoring at church) is going to be put toward buying the things I want to buy. New extra-tall shower curtain and rod for master bath. New chandelier for dining room. Possibly for kitchen, too. 6 sets of 30.6" window blinds and one set of 22". And I want to get started soon, doing some of the projects I CAN do without having to wait for the contractor. Like painting the trim. I'd start tomorrow if it weren't for the Super Bowl. Hrmph.