I think I'm not the first blogger who isn't doing the meme this year. I'm just not feeling it. I do like to reflect, though. My 2012 was good, on the whole. I feel i lived through something this summer, a small depression, maybe, when I was reading all the self-help and trying like hell to fix my attitude. I feel like that few months was a big deal. I learned about myself, and how I don't want to be. I don't want to have to work so hard to enjoy a day. I know I CAN work through hard days if that's what it takes, but I'd rather not have to.
It wasn't a BAD year, I'm just saying that piece of it seemed long. A lot of great, good stuff happened this year, too, including some better, deeper friendships that I really hope to cultivate in the year to come. I have to give thanks for them; they are a treasure. I need to do better at being a friend in general. Being. Doing. Offering. Initiating. Not being too timid. :)
In 2013 I'm hoping to just move more lightly through the days. I want to be better at praying for help with the daily things; help with planning my schedule so that workouts are a part of most days, but not freaking out about it too much. I don't know. Planning my days so that it's possible to enjoy a lunch out with a friend once in a while, and do the errands later. I need spiritual help with these things. I want to be a better wife, mother, daughter, daughter-in-law, and friend. I don't know what else. I wish more light, a lighter feeling, for 2013.
I don't want to focus on the details all the time. I'd rather see the big things -- love, joy, dedication -- in the forefront, and the rest -- work projects, stress about commitments, etc. -- just background noise.
You think I can do that?
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